Working in A Dream

There are a lot of ideas that can turn daily existence into a mental hellscape. Especially when you have anxiety. Alexis deals with one in particular in Chapter 8—but before I get to her experience, I need to walk you through mine.

When I was a child, my parents put me in therapy at a relatively young age. I was placed in therapy because I was hitting other children. One might wonder why I was doing that, but one wouldn’t have far to look. My father had been beaten by his father, and though he considered himself far less of a tyrant than his father (because he used his open hand instead of his belt), my father still seemed to think that hitting my sisters and I was the best way to get through to us when we did something he didn’t like.

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Nice Guys

Hooray! We made it to Chapter Two!

If you read the first blogpost, you know that I started writing this story back in 2015. My partner has read the manuscript multiple times, but the parts that have changed the most over the course of several edits are these first few chapters. Originally, Alexis and Lizzy were going to be staying in Los Angeles for a longer period of time than just a few days, and Alexis and Terry were going to have a few meetings where they chatted and got to know each other as people in a less intense environment. Unfortunately, the pacing of that didn’t work for my beta readers, and the number of locations, situations, and characters was just too much—so all of that got condensed into Chapter Two, where Alexis and Terry navigate a bunch of really new territory really quickly.

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